We never went hiking, and the idea of never going hiking together is what broke my heart the most.
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Brandi Redd
The Secret Side of Crohn's Disease
She takes her fork and knife and slices into the chicken breast, shredding its skin and meat into pieces, bite-sized, the silvery shining blade into her meal and then, miraculous, the fork delivering food into her mouth that is savory, delicious. Then, halfway through her rapid-fire chewing and swallowing and consumption, the familiar, cloying nausea returns, a twinge that hits Rachel all at once like a gymnast toppling from a balance beam. The chicken transforms from tender to a sickly, vinegarish paste that coats the insides of her throat. Concentrate, Rachel thinks, demanding that the food stay safely contained in her body. I will not. I will not. In through the nose, out through the mouth.
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Patty Maher
Life With An Autoimmune Disease
The people you love will quit letting you love them. People will call you a slut. You’ll get arrested. You’ll be labeled a moral degenerate. You’ll never be able to run for office. Doctors will think you’re out for scrips. Your pain will be misinterpreted.
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Anton Corbijn
Suicidal Ideation — And What It Means to be Unpresent
I killed myself at 11:54 PM on Tuesday, April 28, 2015. My body was not discovered until Monday, May 11--a full thirteen days after I had died. Method of suicide was a combination of several tricks: overdose of sleeping pills, alcohol consumption, with cause of death officially listed as asphyxiation. That was because I stuck a small lid (hair gel, maybe?) on my nose and mouth and then wrapped my head in Saran wrap. I passed out before my body realized that there was not enough air to keep breathing for long. I didn’t die from lack of oxygen, which is what most people think when they hear "asphyxiation," but rather, died from carbon dioxide poisoning. There was too much carbon dioxide in the small pocket I left for air.
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Maren Klemp
Writing with Dirty Hands
"Well when I was in parochial school we used to stuff comic books in our Bibles to read during religion class. We liked to draw dicks on the characters. This one time I drew this huge dick on a villain who had a human body with a moose head. It was so perfect I started laughing. You should have seen that nun’s face when she saw me laughing hysterically in Religion class. When she scurried over and found that comic between the Bible pages her face turned so red I thought it was about to explode. The entire time while she beat me with her ruler I couldn’t stop laughing."
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Rafal Michalak
What It's Like to Gradually Go Blind
I tried to imagine how it would be like to see the world once the disease had won: first in fragments, then in shadows until my eyes gave out like a pair of faulty light bulbs, and I would see only blackness. No light. All that I have known about the world would change. All color, drained. The ground would feel like quicksand and I would grope around like a newborn.
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Anano Miminoshvili
Poetry by Samuel Fox
Samuel Fox is the 2014 Gilbert-Chappell Distinguished Collegiate Poet for Western Carolina. His work has been published in Full of Crow, 13 Magazine, and The Nomad. He currently attends Western Carolina University as an undergraduate and is involved with the Asheville, North Carolina slam poetry scene. He moonlights as a jazz guitarist who cannot sing and is working on a book of poems titled Fierce Anatomies. He works at Hunter Library’s Special Collections on Western Carolina University’s campus.
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An Autobiographical Comic by Rosie Clay
I go by Rosie. I write and draw autobiographical comics. I have since a year after I was diagnosed with bipolar type one at age eighteen. I have made comics about all aspects of my life, but mainly I am drawn to writing about my manic and depressed episodes.
Read MoreI Left My Right Foot on the C Train, Fiction by Mia Reedy Herman
No one offers to help me search. They thought I was joking, that this was just me being good ol’ quirky Janie--messy and silly and fun to be around. The girl they loved to be photographed standing next to, chronically pantsless and prone to disappearing for days at a time. The girl who never brushed her hair and never asked for anything.
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When You Stop Inviting People Over
After a few months of living with flies, the dust canister of your vacuum cleaner is coated in dark gray goo. When you empty it, you have to find something to scrape the fly guts off the inside. There is a distinctive smell that is slightly sweet and more-than-slightly nauseating. You count the fly bodies, as if knowing the number of carcasses you vacuum will convince someone that it really is as bad as you say it is. Fifty-seven in the bathtub, thirteen on the counter, but when you try to count the pile in front of the sliding glass door, you lose track somewhere past fifty.
Read MoreCinnamon Rolls — A Story of Diabetes
One random day in July of 2000, without having done a single thing to earn it, my little brother was burdened with the threat of a shortened life unless he learned to stay disciplined in his eating and medicating habits from that day forward. In Connor’s head, the whole world owes him. With a frustrated and tearful look, he will tell you God owes him.
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Laura Hospes
Poetry by Anna Meister
I know someone no doubt remembers me only
in a green dress doughy & believing I'll never
sleep or love again a stranger's narrow mattress
the air turning what was kept private then like
where she put her mouth & if she put her mouth
This Is How You Should Treat Someone Who Suffers from Trichotillomania
I turned to the internet to explain my inexplicable behaviour. I refuted my symptoms because they pointed to a chronic disorder. I tried to conceal the evidence. I would often have to discard a pile of hair below me after a long session of pulling. When questioned by my parents who had detected my noticeable hair loss, I explained that I was probably vitamin-deficient. I was ashamed and embarrassed. The stigma of mental illness caused me to deny what I had come to discover.
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Christian Sampson
This Is What Living with OCD Is Like
I have obsessive compulsive disorder. OCD. The reason why I use the full name is 95% because it’s good writing practice to define your acronyms, and 5% because Target decided to sell a sweater this past Christmas season with the words "OCD: Obsessive Christmas Disorder" charmingly knitted on it.
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Joelle Poulos
Poetry by Leah Nielsen
when you’re the Dead Dad girl
who leaves the party with two boys—just friends—
to see who can leap the farthest off the swing